HI! I haven't written for a long time but I have an excuse for that. When I started writing, I never finished my post because I couldn't think of anything more to write.
Now, however I am going to tell you about a recent experience I had.
You know when you have friends, you don't want to act stupid so that they don't leave you? Well, I always felt like that when I was with them. I realized, however, that this should not be like that. I should be myself when I'm with friends but not an invisible ghost afraid to show its true identity.
I had a big fight with one of my best friends (let's call her Y)because I greeted someone she doesn't like and according to her, "does not give a shit about me." C'mon. I think I am the
one who decides whether to like and greet someone or not, not she. After that, she stopped talking to me and along with that, other friends of mine stopped talking to me as well because they decided to take her side. I think that no one should take any sides because I don't want to make them hate her but just want to keep my friendship with them. It doesn't matter anymore... With this experience I realized who my true friends are and who like the real me. It looks like that for my friend, it was too big cost to pay, to talk to me again, the 'not cool' one.
Of course Y blocked me in facebook and skype which shows her not caring anymore for me. She passes me if we met as if we do not know each other.
Who cares? I don't care anymore and it looks like she doesn't care anymore as well.
I like who I am now without feeling regrets of what I've done. I shouldn't, right?
I do not search for approval or something but just want to share my
disappointment in the ones I thought loved and cared for me. I trusted them and when there was an opportunity, they decided to leave me. OK...
They lose.
After all, shouldn't we be grateful for those friends who stay rather than for those who leave us?
P.S. Listen to this song. It's wonderful.
Another P.S. :D Soon I will tell you about my secong experience in "Open Microphone" and if you want to give me ideas about future posts, be my guests. ((:
